Monday, March 2, 2009
Beside Still Waters...
A Psalm of David. The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. Psalm 23:1-2
Ok, I know I've been a terrible blogger for the past several months. I had been planning to post something about what I believe when a person is saved and if they choose God or God chooses them but my computer broke down and my outline was on there and I never got around to starting a new one. However if my documents are recovered I will post it.
I just wanted to share what had been going on in my life. I'm taking my GED so the state will no longer consider me a student. Last Thursday was my first class and I absolutely hated it. I had never, ever been in a class room before other than at my church and on my first day I was asked so many questions about why I was homeschooled, why I didn't date, why I wasn't going to college, and then the strange look when I said I just wanted to be a stay at home mom.
I felt overwhelmed and wanted to just stay home all weekend and not ever go back. A guy had asked me for my phone number and if we could be friends and this was the very first time that's ever happened to me. I didn't want to be mean but I see my relationship with boys now and how I treat them as if I and they were already married, because we all will be one day and I must treat them as someone else's mate. Not my buddy. So I felt down. Everyone was nice, it is just so hard being different. I told one of my friends about my first day and she laughed and said, "That sounds so funny coming from you." Then she went on to ask what on earth I was wearing. I told her a long skirt and a modest sweater and she just laughed more.
I prayed Sunday about what I should do. I didn't want to go back but there seemed no way out. God seemed to remind me I wasn't promised tomorrow and these people may be the last lost people I ever have a chance to shine Christ's light to. So I prayed and prayed. I asked that God would let less of me show and He would shine out. I went back this morning and felt so blessed. I did well with my work and I only talked to other girls and they were very nice to me. I felt so grateful. I'm asking God to please continue to let things be like this but if not pray that I will have the strength to tell them what I believe with boldness and cheerfulness.
I want to bring God glory in all that I do and I know this is only for a season. And God will help me through it until I'm able to return to the security of my home and continue in my work here.
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might. Put on the full armor of God, so that you will be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.
Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm.
Stand firm therefore, HAVING GIRDED YOUR LOINS WITH TRUTH, and HAVING PUT ON THE BREASTPLATE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS, and having shod YOUR FEET WITH THE PREPARATION OF THE GOSPEL OF PEACE; in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
And take THE HELMET OF SALVATION, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. With all prayer and petition pray at all times in the Spirit, and with this in view, be on the alert with all perseverance and petition for all the saints, and pray on my behalf, that utterance may be given to me in the opening of my mouth, to make known with boldness the mystery of the gospel, Eph. 6:10-19
I love the LORD, because He hears My voice and my supplications Because He has inclined His ear to me, Therefore I shall call upon Him as long as I live.